2016: The Year of Fulfilled Promise

I always like to take stock of the year at milestones such as these and look back at all that Yahweh has done.

I know if you look at the media, it would be easy to surmise that 2016 has been a rotten year for the majority of Americans and the world in general. I know better than to listen to the media, and even though some negative things have happened in the world, Yahweh is sovereign and any change such as we've seen can be used by Him to bring Heaven more fully in unity with Earth. Indeed, for some the removal of one layer of illusion in society will allow them to step more fully into the Truth of Yahweh as they begin to look deeper past the layer they are currently seeing. That is hopeful.

In my personal life, 2016 has been the best of my 28 years, and it only gets better from here.  Even as I think to describe it, know that I am a Wordsmith, yet even I cannot adequately express what Yahweh has done for me here.

Let me start by saying that 2016 did not start out as the best year of my life. Indeed, for the first four months I wondered if I could make it through 2016 at all. The enemy saw my breakthrough coming, and he tried to stop me before it got here, lest I remember my Promise and my power and utterly defeat him.

Somewhere in the back of my soul for the whole of my life until now, I had a fear that I did not deserve to be alive. A generational curse told me that I needed to earn my space in this world, and that if I were not good enough everyone--Yahweh included--would hate me and wish that I didn't exist.

I started 2016 alone and in fear, thinking that I did not deserve to live and that anything that went wrong in my life was somehow my fault. I spent a few evenings literally lying on the floor crying or in panic attacks because the enemy was sending me false visions involving my blood and knives and other details I will not go into. Fortunately, Yahweh has always been sovereign and I knew that the visions weren't true, though even seeing them was scary. Yet, Yahweh had me, and He surrounded me with a people who would stand with me in faith and remind me of truth until I could remember it myself.

This happened in April, around the time of First Fruits, when we celebrate Yahshua--Yahweh's first and best--by coming into agreement with Him as we give our first and best. It was then that Yahweh reminded me of my Promise, the Covenant that we made together before time to create me.

I have never since doubted that I deserve to be alive.

As we moved through the year, I published a book related to the Promise, "Promises: The Poetry of the Zadokim." I also received a deeper revelation of the Zadokim anointing, that we as priests and kings of Yahweh most high could go directly to Him and minister to Him and offer Him the fat and the blood. We do so in worship and we do so by ruling and reigning and taking our place in this Earth for His glory.

I had the last panic attack in June, when Yahweh told me that I have the power to stand up to the enemy... all the power in the universe, in fact. As fear tried to grip me, once more and my breathing became shallow, I stopped and told Satan and fear that they have no power over me because I have all the power in the universe. It was gone in five minutes, and I was praising Yahweh, dancing and weeping in joy. The next night, it happened again, just to cement the reality of Yahweh's Word. Again, I told fear that I have power and it does not and it left me, never to return. Yahweh was proud of me, and I wrote poetry and a letter to Him in praise.

In the natural, I received a job that is much better for me and where I can still make a difference and help kids. I have supportive co-workers and administrators and wonderful students. I am no longer exhausted by the school year.

One of the best things that has happened to me this year is that I found my Promised Land, or the place that Yahweh has given me to operate and reign in. I am a poet and a parablist. I am a writer and I take all that Yahweh shows me and put it in poetry and parables so that He can be seen and glorified in greater measure. I have written 4 books since publishing my first one and cannot wait to see the rest be published. I have started a business to write and sell these books and I have two book signings coming up in January.

Even more wonderful things have happened. I have learned to see beyond the Veil, to see from Yahweh's perspective and He has shared parts of Himself with me that are so glorious and so beautiful that I must weep at the splendor.

I do not dread 2017. I have dreaded every New Year that I can remember. Even as a child, I knew pain and I was smart enough to know that both good and bad would come in the year ahead. I had a wonderful imagination, but as it was not aware of Yahweh as it is now, it would take me down the path of thinking that horrible things could happen in the next year that I could neither predict nor alter.

I never thought about the wonderful things that could happen, and as I grew older and pain was all I knew, I stopped looking forward to anything. Dread started each day with me, and I did not know it could be any different.

Yet now, I know the sovereignty of Yahweh in greater measure, and the relationship I have with Him can only deepen in the coming year. He has Promises for me that are beyond my wildest dreams and I am excited to see them manifest in this world.

I see the world so differently now. I see with more of Yahweh's view. His Reality is sovereign in me and in my perspective. I did not know that life could ever be this good. Yet, now I know that life can be even better. It only ever gets better, for Yahweh can only ever increase.

But none of this would be possible without Yahweh. If I had listened to the visions of the enemy and hurt myself or taken myself out of the Promise as they called me to do, I would never have experienced this joy and this rapture. Life is good and worth it. Yahweh is Life.

If you watched me walk through the things I suffered at the time, you know I would not have then called them "light afflictions," yet compared to the joy that I walk in now, compared to Yahweh, they are just that. He promised: "Wherever you go I will find you/ wherever you are, there I'll be." He has kept His Promise in greater ways than I could have ever imagined, fathomed, or even dreamed.

HalleluYah!

The Promise of Christmas

I am continually amazed at the way in which Yahweh has hidden Himself throughout His creation for all of us to find. Some see Him in nature, some in other people's gifts of kindness or acts of love. I find Him in Words.

Christ-anointed one/anointing. He is the Spirit of Yahweh who operated through Yahshua when He was on the Earth and who currently operates through us if we give Him access to our hearts.

Mass-from the Latin mittere, meaning "to send."

Christmas- The sending of Christ! The coming to this realm, the Earth, of the Spirit of the Creator.

But oh, it's so much more than that, for this mittere is also the root word of Promise.

Why did Yahweh send His Son to the Earth? I'll be controversial and say that it was not simply so that He could die and save mankind from their sins. It is so much bigger than that! He sent Yahshua to Earth to unlock our Promised Land once again. That mankind could again be redeemed to the Garden of Eden--our own unique and special wheelhouses where we can express and create with Yahweh as we originally promised to do when we Covenanted with Him in the Beginning.

Yahshua came to Earth to redeem our Promise.

That is what we celebrate today on Christmas Eve and tomorrow on Christmas Day. It is more than a baby born in a manger, more than salvation from the sins that would ensnare us, it is the total redemption of the Promise that is our very existence and all that we do to express it.

This Promise, made before time in the Heavens, had to be affirmed on the Earth once the two were separated by the Fall. Thus that the Promise could be fulfilled in its entirety in all realms. Christmas is that affirmation, when Yahshua came to the Earth as the Word made Flesh, the Promise made Man.

Christmas is a Promise, and for those who will affirm the Promise in their own hearts and in their own lives, it is something that we can live in always, not just on December 25.

Glory to God in the Highest!

Looking for Adam (Thoughts on Marriage From a Single Person)

I have been thinking about families recently; it is Christmas, after all. More specifically, I was thinking about what an ideal family would look like and about the things that I have been longing for recently.

I am 28 years old, and though I very much see myself as a wife and a mother one day, I have never been on a date, never had a crush, never held hands with a boy. I'm still waiting on my first kiss! This is strange in today's world unless you're a very strict fundamentalist Christian. Yes, our ecclesia had a belief for a while that dating was inappropriate, but as the culture of our youth changed, so did that belief. Yet, I have never been tempted to date.

My parents imposed no rules on my in this regard. I'm sure they would have if I had shown any interest in dating, but it really never came up. It's not that I am unaware of the physical attributes of certain males. Yet, even when I was young, the idea of crushes based solely on physical attraction made no sense to me. I was 10 when the movie "Titanic" came out, and everybody my age and up was suddenly in love with Leonardo DiCaprio, to the point where it was strange not to be. I remember my mom telling me how she'd met one lady in a store who had a child around my age and they were discussing the movie. This lady was incredulous that I was not in love with Leonardo DiCaprio.

He was a very handsome actor, yet the idea of celebrity crushes always seemed odd to me. While acknowledging the fact that these men are attractive, even at age 10 I realized that I didn't know them. How would I know if they were good people or not? All I knew of them is what they showed to the media, and that's not the measure of a man.

As I got older, I thought that perhaps I'd meet someone with similar interests or life-goals. We'd share similar values. Of course, he'd be a Christian and we'd fall in love and get married someday. Never mind that at the time I had no idea who I was and there was no way I'd be ready for that. I didn't know how that would happen, either, but I never felt the compulsion to go out and find a man, even though having a husband and children is one of the deepest desires of my heart.

When I came into the Kingdom to a level where I had started to know myself, Yahweh revealed to me that a husband and wife are joined as one in a very specific order. Just as Yahweh is a Trinity, we are trinities, made up of spirit, soul, and body. He said that a husband and a wife had to be joined first by the spirit, then in the soul, and finally...on the wedding night... physically. I rejoiced in this revelation, for a relationship not based in spirit is somewhat superficial, and that is not the kind of relationship I wanted with my husband. Still, I felt no compunction to seek out a person to whom I could be so joined. Indeed, it was and is my conviction that the man should be the leader even in this and that meanwhile I can be intercession.

But as I said, I was thinking a lot about families recently and what I would ideally want in a husband. I am very prophetic, and there are things that I see that it's difficult to share with everybody, and I realized tonight that what I wanted most in a husband is someone with whom I can share those things. Then, Yahweh showed me that I am looking for my Adam.

You see, each of us was created with a specific Promised Land, a specific Garden of Eden for our lives. It is not necessarily a physical place, though some people find their calling very much in a specific plot of land. This Garden of Eden is the metron--the dominion--which Yahweh gave us from the Beginning. It is in this land that we are to rule and reign and where we have all authority as we submit to Yahweh God. Indeed, we can create in this Promised Land, even as Adam created with Yahweh naming all of the animals.

I have found my Garden of Eden, though I haven't explored it all yet. It is vast! It will take an eternity to explore. What I realized tonight is that I can settle for no less than the Adam to this Garden of Eden, the man who is willing to join the Covenant he made with Yahweh before time to the Covenant I made with Yahweh before time so that our Gardens become One. Then, we can rule and reign together, creating and expanding our Garden in infinite increase.

Oh, how I look forward to this, to being able to share the glories that I have seen with someone who will understand and appreciate it all, with someone who will help me govern and create with me. I am so glad that I have never thought to settle for anything less, and though I have not always been patient, sometimes waiting is key. For Yahweh told me recently that time can be an ingredient in creation.

I know that it will all be worth it in the end.

PS-- This is in no way meant to be condemnation or judgment of those who do choose to date. Yahweh can join people and Gardens in various ways. Who would I be to judge? This is just how He's done it for me.

The Power of the Promise

Once, in the center of infinite-eternity, in the very foundation of your life and all that you are, you and Yahweh came together in a Covenant and created a Promise.

It is this Promise that is immutable and governs your existence. It is to this Promise you must be faithful, choosing to follow Yahweh in all things so that you can bring this Promise to full manifestation to the point that it is something that not only you can see by faith, but all of the world can see and know that the hand of Yahweh has done this and give Him glory and honor in the Earth.

This Promise was a joint venture between you and Yahweh. Yahweh, the omnipotent God of Everything poured His entire Being into this venture. This Promise is only breakable by you, and if you are faithful, this Promise is omnipotent.

Everything stemming from your Promise is then omnipotent.

This gives me great hope and pleasure because it means that, as long as I am faithful, anything bad or negative that I experience cannot damage my Promise. It also gives me direction and focus. Do I need to spend time trying to avoid all the negative things that living in a fallen world can throw at me or do I need to focus on the Promise and the fact that nothing can hinder, stop, or come against it? "No weapon formed against me may prosper."

Nothing that tries to stop me in my Promise from being fulfilled has the possibility of hurting me! As I move deeper and deeper into my Promise, I begin to see more and more clearly and I can be less and less worried about these weapons that don't matter.

If I look back at my past, filled with depression, anxiety, loneliness, panic attack-inducing fear, and lack of identity and purpose, I can honestly say that none of that hurt my Promise. It was not fun. I never want to do it again. Yet I am still here and still enjoying the fullness of Yahweh and His Promise to me. Nothing out of my life has been stolen, and everything has been and is being redeemed. Yahweh is faithful! I am faithful!

Many times people look back at their past and that induces fear for the future. I remember when I was mired in depression and I only saw sadness ahead because that was basically all I could remember feeling. We tend to pattern our futures off of our pasts, reasoning in our finite minds that what has been will always be and unless we take great and sometimes futile efforts to change, our futures will be as miserable as our pasts were.

But Yahweh does not say that. In fact, when the temple was rebuilt in Jerusalem after the 70 years of captivity in Babylon, those who saw it wept at its lack of splendor and glory compared to the temple of Solomon. But Yahweh said that the glory of the latter temple should eclipse the glory of the former temple, and it was so when in that temple, Yahshua entered and taught about His Father. It was the veil in that temple that was torn in two from top to bottom, and it was that temple that was standing when it ceased to be the temple of Yahweh and that honor was given to us when Holy Spirit came upon man. That is glory, indeed!

We shall be so much more glorious. The glory of our futures shall completely eclipse the glory of the past and even the present, no matter how awful or wonderful the past was. In Yahweh, we can only ever increase. In Yahweh, nothing can ever stop that. Nothing can come against and stop your Promise from growing and expressing so long as you have the faith to see.

And even then, the Promise is finished and immutable. It is more firm and sure than the stars in the sky or the very foundation of the Earth. It is as Yahweh is, for it all exists in Him.

He who has eyes to see let him see, and he who has ears to hear let him hear! HalleluYah! Amen.