Home

What is home?

I am not sure I really understand this yet. But I think, I know, that I am beginning to have a home.

I've never had a home before. Not like this. Oh, I've had wonderful houses that I have lived in. The house I live in now was positively a gift from Yahweh. And the windows are so. awesome. (Windows!!) But a house is not a home.

Home is a safe place. Home is a place where you can rest and not fear what might try to come against you. I've always thought that home is a place that you can be yourself, but then I didn't really know myself, so I couldn't have been me if I tried.

There is so much more to home than this, however. Because home is where the Father is. In our society, most people don't have a home anymore because it takes a father to make a home. And while many of the Earthly fathers of this nation haven't been able to create homes for their families, a home is available for everyone who receives Yahweh as their Father.

There's always been this part of me that feels just a little bit lonely, a little bit left out. Our ecclesia really puts an emphasis on family, for that is Yahweh's order and government. His original idea was for families to care for each other and to rule over metrons--areas of responsibility--together. The original word for "nation" actually is "birth," and the original countries were based entirely on families who grew and spread out to rule vast areas of land.

Yet, what about those of us whose families are not ready to take their places in the Kingdom order? There are some of us who don't have earthly fathers, mothers, husbands, wives, etc. who are willing to line up with Yahweh and help us steward these metrons that we have been given. Sometimes, this can be hard because, while there are pastors and people who are very kind and willing to help where they can, there is no substitute for family. There is always the inevitable time when you have to return to an empty house and, alone, prepare for the responsibilities that tomorrow will bring you.

But Yahweh does not leave us as orphans. He promised to come to us and to give us the spirit of adoption. He promised, in other words, to be our Father. And in our Father are many homes. There Yahshua prepared a place for us, and we came to the Father through Him.

This home is not a physical location. It is not in one place at one time, but it is in Yahweh. He is my home, and He is my Father. In Him I am safe. In Him I can rest and not fear what might try to come against me. In Him I can be myself, for He has shown me myself and He has made me into myself. He helps me reign in my metron, for He gives me the grace to do so. And it is here that I have found my home.

Though I do not understand it, for I've never seen a home like this before. I have friends whose dreams are to travel the world and visit foreign places, and while I find travel fun and exciting, I have always dreamed of having a home. I've tried to push aside the loneliness, to save the things they say about family for the "one day" and the "not yet" when Yahweh will do something new in the far distant future.

Yet here I am, beginning to see what "home" is, realizing the dream far earlier than I ever thought possible, a dream that part of me thought would never really be possible. But with my God all things are possible. Yahweh is so amazing.

Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me. In My Father’s house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also. ~John 14:1-3