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How beautiful it is to be Yahweh's!

I feel inspired to write again, though I know now that words cannot convey Yahweh in His fullness. We must experience Yahweh to fully receive all we can from Him. Even then, though, I am grateful to know there is always even more to receive from Him and give to Him. There is so much. And Yahweh is always increasing. Can you imagine? Of the INCREASE of His government and peace there will be no end (Isaiah 7:9). It's wonderful!

It is also difficult to put into words. And I find I don't need to as much anymore. I used to live to be in fiction: to watch my favorite TV shows or read fiction books. But now I find that I don't want to...I almost can't... be sucked into a fictitious world as I used to. Not that I don't still love a good book, but I no longer become so immersed in the book. Indeed, many novels I used to read or novels similar to those now seem shallow and quite a bit less profound than they ever were before.

I've run across this quote before. It is attributed to Dr. Seuss: "You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."

I agree! I understand. For I am SO in love with Yahweh!

When I was first healed in February, 2010, I remember that I went from sleeping for twelve hours per day to five hours per day, because I was so...new. I saw the world anew for the first time. And each day, I grow more and more in Him. And so I can see that each day is new. Each moment is new. Why wait for a new day? He loves us each moment! It's awesome!

And there's so much more! So much I can't say. So much I would if I could, and so much I wouldn't, for the sweetness must roll around in my mouth just a little longer before I spit it out. So much...

Sometimes I am so full of Yahweh that I feel I will explode if I do not do something, but what could I do? I run around the ecclesia, I bash chairs and walls with my hands, I smile as if my face will crack in two, and I scream mightily. Sometimes, these things work, but sometimes, my breathing becomes ragged from just trying to hold myself together and not fly into a million pieces of Yahweh's joy. One day, I will stop trying to hold myself together, and just let Yahweh be.

I am so blessed to be with Yahweh. I am never alone. I know He loves me and is for me and will never leave me nor forsake me. But what's more, I know and !He knows! that I am for Him and I love Him and I will never leave Him nor forsake Him! He has promised me these things, too, so that I have finally, finally, learned to trust myself and the Him in me (for my Nature is His, now!), and let go of striving. I no longer fear choosing to not be His. I no longer fear disobeying (though I am not so proud to think I am perfect), but rather I know that He has been and is being formed in me and so He guides me! I will not be malicious, nor will I leave Him. Yahweh has given me Himself, and in so doing, He has given me myself, too. HalleluYah!

If anyone is still reading, congratulations! I could go on for pages and pages and forever and ever. But I know that praise and worship of Yahweh is meant to extend beyond the words on a page or the tune in a song. My life...and all eternity...is to praise and worship Him.

Our lives, if we so choose, can be love letters to Yahweh!
May it always be so.

Love,
Cassie