First I'd like to say that I am part of the most amazing Kingdom family. We are a people of strength and maturity who have cultivated the gifts of Yahweh inside of each of us and found our Promise and who we are. The Spirit has total access to our lives and flows freely through us so that we can express Yahweh anywhere we are in the world. This is even more amazing because I have an extended Kingdom family in other ecclesiae (churches) around the US, and we got to do this trip with some of them also. The same Spirit runs in all of us, and we give Him all glory and honor.
We spent eleven days in Belize, but it felt like a lifetime. This is probably because the impact that we had there will last a lifetime... an eternal lifetime. We found the same Spirit that we brought with us there in a group of faithful people. Partnering with them, we ministered to the entire nation. Yes, the nation. We infiltrated systems that impact the whole country including the schools, national TV and radio shows, and even the Belizean Coast Guard. There was no door closed to us, and I know that is because the people who have been there and taken their place as kings and priests of their land have opened the door for us. We just came alongside of them and input our own anointings and expressions of Yahweh.
My favorite part, of course, was ministering to the schools. Getting to go and do what I do every day in another country opened my eyes to where my students have come from, and it also opened my eyes to me. I am able to take the Infinite and bring it to a level where people can understand and apply it. I do it every day, and I did not realize that before this trip. In fact, much of what I did on this trip is exactly what I do in Arkansas. On Tuesday I was teaching for our last day of school. Thursday I flew to Belize, and Friday I was teaching school again. I think one of the things I learned the most was that Yahweh is the same wherever you are, and that you in Him are the same wherever you are. It is like one of my poems:
"Wherever I go the Kingdom is
Wherever I am Yahweh's Promise
Shines brightly forth in the emptiness
The hope that creation will harness"
It doesn't matter if you are in Belize on a missions trip, working at your everyday job, in a service at your local ecclesia, or laying in bed all day sleeping. You are still Yahweh's Promise, and when you are faithful to go where He sends you, that Promise is able to be expressed everywhere.
I went to Belize largely to see what Yahweh looked like in Belize. What does He look like on a missions trip? What does He look like in another country? This is only the second time I've left the country, and I know Him so much better now than I did the last time; I wanted to see. Lo and behold He looks the same. It really drove home the point that Yahweh--in complete and utter totality--is in everything and everyone. Hear, oh nations, Yahweh our Elohim, Yahweh is One! And we are One in Him.
He even talked to me about the Infinite just like He does here in Arkansas, and at the advice of my Apostle, I will be starting a blog about that soon. More details to come on that one.
Everything Yahweh told me about Belize during intercession before we left was confirmed when we got there. It was a land of Promise, purity, and unity. They have the same surface problems I see in America, but nothing can touch or alter the Promise of Yahweh. It is still there waiting for the kings and priests to discover it and take their places. Some of them already have, but more are coming.
Overall, it was a wonderful trip, and I loved getting to minister there. The tropical climate is not one that I enjoy, so I would never have taken a vacation there, but they do have some beautiful scenery that we also got to explore. I loved seeing the Mayan ruins because history is the BEST, and climbing to the top was just another way to prove that there is no such thing as death. I also loved seeing the beaches and the original way to make chocolate. Sampling the chocolate was definitely a highlight of the trip also. Let's just say that people should make chocolate with ginger and chocolate with cardamom more easily available in the USA.
The eleven-day lifetime we spent in Belize was amazing and eternal. I will forever cherish the memories and love the relationships we built there. I doubt it will be the last time we go, and I can't wait to see all that Yahweh brings of what we have just seen begin.
Monday, June 12, 2017
Thursday, March 23, 2017
Heaven and Hell
I have never read Paradise Lost, nor do I know anything about John Milton or his beliefs. I cannot endorse either, nor can I speak against them.
All I can say is that this quote speaks to me.
“The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a Heaven of Hell, a Hell of Heaven.”
― John Milton, Paradise Lost
Yahweh has been showing me recently that the way you see the world is the key to what you experience, how you live, and how much you are able to grow and make a difference. Everybody sees the world differently. That is good and that is right, for we all have different purposes and metrons in Yahweh to steward. We are not all kings of the same region, but we are all kings in Him.
Problems don't arise from seeing from different perspectives. Problems arise when we look at anything but Yahweh. When we look at Yahweh, we can see all other things through Him. When we look away from Him, we see shadows and illusions--things that should never be.
When we look at Yahweh, we see and abide in Heaven.
When we look away from Him, we see and abide in Hell.
Let us look to Yahweh and let us allow Him to show us Himself in ever expanding and increasing measures. Let's explore Heaven together.
All I can say is that this quote speaks to me.
“The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a Heaven of Hell, a Hell of Heaven.”
― John Milton, Paradise Lost
Yahweh has been showing me recently that the way you see the world is the key to what you experience, how you live, and how much you are able to grow and make a difference. Everybody sees the world differently. That is good and that is right, for we all have different purposes and metrons in Yahweh to steward. We are not all kings of the same region, but we are all kings in Him.
Problems don't arise from seeing from different perspectives. Problems arise when we look at anything but Yahweh. When we look at Yahweh, we can see all other things through Him. When we look away from Him, we see shadows and illusions--things that should never be.
When we look at Yahweh, we see and abide in Heaven.
When we look away from Him, we see and abide in Hell.
Let us look to Yahweh and let us allow Him to show us Himself in ever expanding and increasing measures. Let's explore Heaven together.
Sunday, January 29, 2017
The United States of America
Hear, oh United States of America, Yahweh your God, Yahweh is One!
We as a nation were created to showcase the glory of Yahweh, and recently we have fallen short of the fullness of what we could be. Let us repent! For there is more than what we are walking in.
Yahweh calls us forth to greater unity. The enemy has sown seeds of division and separation based on special interests and common ground (or lack thereof). He has caused discontent in the hearts of Americans who do not feel that their voices are being heard or their needs are being met because they know they are unsatisfied with their lives.
Many Christians have fallen victim to this ploy, and I repent as well for the fear that I held during the election that Christianity would fall under greater attack than it already was. It is not acceptable to submit to fear, for fear brings division.
People of various races, religions, and abilities have different perspectives on the world. The enemy has lied to them, saying that if everyone could see from their perspective then their needs would be met and they would no longer feel unfulfilled. Yet, the only thing that can fulfill anyone is Yahweh. The enemy has also placed fear into them, telling them that if people don't see from their perspective, they will be killed or persecuted or degraded. Yet, the only protection and provision is Yahweh.
Yahweh is a God of Unity, but He expresses Himself in diverse ways. He does not want men to see from women's perspectives. He wants men and women to be different, to have different perspectives and roles so that He can be glorified twice as much as He could be if there were only one gender.
Yahweh does not want there to be one race. He wanted people of various flavors and cultures and colors to work together in unity, using their different perspectives for His glory. He did not want their differences to cause division, but to cause mutual edification!
Yet, none of this is possible without Yahweh and without faith. Unity can only come by faith, but if man is too afraid to unite together because they have believed the lies of the enemy that are fear-based and based in lack of identity, then none of what Yahweh dreamed for our nation will be possible.
America has always been a melting pot, a place where diverse groups of people could be made into one nation. One of our national mottoes is E Pluribus Unum: Out of Many, One. Yet, in recent years, it has been more like "Out of many, many." People have clung fiercely to the things they think identify them and make them separate from others. They have decided that they must fight for these things, growing angry and militant in the fear that these false identities will be removed.
Yet, if we lay down what we think we are, Yahweh will give us something better.
So let us move on, America! Black, white, Hispanic, Asian... we are not the color of our skin or the culture into which we were born or raised. We are not the language that we speak or the expression of values that we held dear. We are not our gender, occupation, or how the world treats us. We are Yahweh's and only what He made us.
Once we know who we are, we can accept others, but not until then. Once we know who we are and have united with Yahweh, we can unite with others, but not until then.
So let us take the first step and discover ourselves in Yahweh that we can again become The United States of America: One nation under God, and truly with liberty and justice for all.
It is the only way liberty and justice for all is ever going to be possible.
We as a nation were created to showcase the glory of Yahweh, and recently we have fallen short of the fullness of what we could be. Let us repent! For there is more than what we are walking in.
Yahweh calls us forth to greater unity. The enemy has sown seeds of division and separation based on special interests and common ground (or lack thereof). He has caused discontent in the hearts of Americans who do not feel that their voices are being heard or their needs are being met because they know they are unsatisfied with their lives.
Many Christians have fallen victim to this ploy, and I repent as well for the fear that I held during the election that Christianity would fall under greater attack than it already was. It is not acceptable to submit to fear, for fear brings division.
People of various races, religions, and abilities have different perspectives on the world. The enemy has lied to them, saying that if everyone could see from their perspective then their needs would be met and they would no longer feel unfulfilled. Yet, the only thing that can fulfill anyone is Yahweh. The enemy has also placed fear into them, telling them that if people don't see from their perspective, they will be killed or persecuted or degraded. Yet, the only protection and provision is Yahweh.
Yahweh is a God of Unity, but He expresses Himself in diverse ways. He does not want men to see from women's perspectives. He wants men and women to be different, to have different perspectives and roles so that He can be glorified twice as much as He could be if there were only one gender.
Yahweh does not want there to be one race. He wanted people of various flavors and cultures and colors to work together in unity, using their different perspectives for His glory. He did not want their differences to cause division, but to cause mutual edification!
Yet, none of this is possible without Yahweh and without faith. Unity can only come by faith, but if man is too afraid to unite together because they have believed the lies of the enemy that are fear-based and based in lack of identity, then none of what Yahweh dreamed for our nation will be possible.
America has always been a melting pot, a place where diverse groups of people could be made into one nation. One of our national mottoes is E Pluribus Unum: Out of Many, One. Yet, in recent years, it has been more like "Out of many, many." People have clung fiercely to the things they think identify them and make them separate from others. They have decided that they must fight for these things, growing angry and militant in the fear that these false identities will be removed.
Yet, if we lay down what we think we are, Yahweh will give us something better.
So let us move on, America! Black, white, Hispanic, Asian... we are not the color of our skin or the culture into which we were born or raised. We are not the language that we speak or the expression of values that we held dear. We are not our gender, occupation, or how the world treats us. We are Yahweh's and only what He made us.
Once we know who we are, we can accept others, but not until then. Once we know who we are and have united with Yahweh, we can unite with others, but not until then.
So let us take the first step and discover ourselves in Yahweh that we can again become The United States of America: One nation under God, and truly with liberty and justice for all.
It is the only way liberty and justice for all is ever going to be possible.
Friday, January 27, 2017
Abortion
Today there was a national march for life in Washington, D.C. to protest the rampant slaughter of the innocents that takes place in America every day since the decision to legalize abortions in 1973.
Yet, as with all things, the physical is one with the spiritual, demonstrating in the substance what is believed for in Heaven.
Abortion happens for many reasons. Often it is because people want something, but they don't want the consequences of that something. They think that the consequences will be too difficult, too dangerous, or just plain inconvenient. Yet, the very consequence most feared can become the most beautiful and wonderful gift if you could but see it the right way.
When Yahweh gives you a Promise, He also gives you a process. That process is completely wrapped up in the Promise and that Promise is completely wrapped up in the process. Each step in the process is essential for that Promise to be complete. Abort even one step, and you abort the Promise.
Why, though, would anyone abort the Promise that Yahweh has given them?
Why do so many misguided women murder their babies?
Some people abort the process because it is inconvenient. It does not fit in with their lifestyle decisions or plans that they had for their futures.
Some women abort their babies because they are inconvenient. They had other lifestyles and futures planned out.
Some people abort the process because it is difficult... and I've been through this process, so I can tell you that there are many, many chances to turn around and say no. The process ranges from merely "difficult" to "I literally don't think I can survive this for one more second."
Some women abort their babies because pregnancy is difficult. I admit, I've never been pregnant, but I readily acknowledge how uncomfortable it can be. Again, this ranges from merely "I'm bigger than I want to be and have hormonal mood swings" to "medical complications might literally kill me."
Some people abort the process because they don't think they can handle what has been Promised. This ranges from thinking they are unworthy of the Promise offered to them to fearing the level of responsibility it will bring upon them.
Some women abort their babies because they don't think they can provide their children with a good life, they don't think they deserve children, or they don't trust themselves a parents.
Every abortion of a Promise is showing Yahweh that you don't trust Him to deliver what He has Promised to you. You either don't believe Him or you think that you will somehow mess it up because some part of it is riding on your shoulders.
Every abortion of a baby is showing Yahweh that you don't trust Him to deliver what He has Promised to you. You either don't believe He put that baby inside of you or you think that you will somehow mess him or her up because his or her future is riding on your shoulders.
Abortion is not merely murder. Abortion means "to bring to a premature end."
Yahweh's Promises were never meant to end. They were always meant to be eternal, so any ending of them is premature.
And every single life is a Promise.
Yet, as with all things, the physical is one with the spiritual, demonstrating in the substance what is believed for in Heaven.
Abortion happens for many reasons. Often it is because people want something, but they don't want the consequences of that something. They think that the consequences will be too difficult, too dangerous, or just plain inconvenient. Yet, the very consequence most feared can become the most beautiful and wonderful gift if you could but see it the right way.
When Yahweh gives you a Promise, He also gives you a process. That process is completely wrapped up in the Promise and that Promise is completely wrapped up in the process. Each step in the process is essential for that Promise to be complete. Abort even one step, and you abort the Promise.
Why, though, would anyone abort the Promise that Yahweh has given them?
Why do so many misguided women murder their babies?
Some people abort the process because it is inconvenient. It does not fit in with their lifestyle decisions or plans that they had for their futures.
Some women abort their babies because they are inconvenient. They had other lifestyles and futures planned out.
Some people abort the process because it is difficult... and I've been through this process, so I can tell you that there are many, many chances to turn around and say no. The process ranges from merely "difficult" to "I literally don't think I can survive this for one more second."
Some women abort their babies because pregnancy is difficult. I admit, I've never been pregnant, but I readily acknowledge how uncomfortable it can be. Again, this ranges from merely "I'm bigger than I want to be and have hormonal mood swings" to "medical complications might literally kill me."
Some people abort the process because they don't think they can handle what has been Promised. This ranges from thinking they are unworthy of the Promise offered to them to fearing the level of responsibility it will bring upon them.
Some women abort their babies because they don't think they can provide their children with a good life, they don't think they deserve children, or they don't trust themselves a parents.
Every abortion of a Promise is showing Yahweh that you don't trust Him to deliver what He has Promised to you. You either don't believe Him or you think that you will somehow mess it up because some part of it is riding on your shoulders.
Every abortion of a baby is showing Yahweh that you don't trust Him to deliver what He has Promised to you. You either don't believe He put that baby inside of you or you think that you will somehow mess him or her up because his or her future is riding on your shoulders.
Abortion is not merely murder. Abortion means "to bring to a premature end."
Yahweh's Promises were never meant to end. They were always meant to be eternal, so any ending of them is premature.
And every single life is a Promise.
Friday, January 6, 2017
Surprise Snow Day
Today has been very interesting. It was not the day I thought I'd have when I woke up. I thought I'd have a normal Friday at school followed by a workout and getting home around 6:30 or 7:30 pm. Nope.
I woke up and turned on the TV because there was the possibility of a light snow dusting and I wanted to be sure that it hadn't snowed in the city I work in because I live about 45 minutes away. I looked out the window and there was no snow on the ground. The news said there was a little snow to the side of the roads on the main highway I'd have to take to get in to school, and so I quickly turned it off and jumped in the shower because I sleep as much as possible in the mornings and didn't have a lot of time to get ready.
The whole way to school, the roads are clear and dry. As I got closer, I noticed snow on the grass and on the side roads. Then, as I pulled into the school parking lot I was shocked to see one or two cars in the administration parking lot and no kids outside or buses.
"No," I whispered to myself as I drove to the back parking lot. "The kids are huddled inside waiting." I reasoned, "I came in the gap between bus drop offs."
I refused to believe it until I saw that the staff parking lot was entirely empty. I pulled in and whipped out my phone, googling my school district's name to find it CLOSED.
I had to decide what to feel in that moment. Part of me was upset--I could've slept to my normal circadian rhythmic hours! Mostly, though, I was ecstatic.
I love snow days! It's not because I want to be lazy and miss work or because I don't like my job. I love my job and I love being able to express Yahweh there. It's not even because I love the biting air and the beautiful blanket of white, though I do. I love snow days because they are a special gift from Yahweh.
You see, He uses snow days to give me time. This time is completely free of all obligations or requirements, as the obligations and requirements that were there have been cancelled. I can fill it with whatever I want, and because my heart is one with Yahweh, anything I fill it with is good.
So today I went to the gym (after buying some showering supplies in Walmart) and then headed to my parents' house for a while because I asked my mom if she wanted to see a movie. After a lunch date that she'd had with her friend, we saw "Collateral Beauty."
Then I came home, and the whole thing was entirely beautiful. It was a wonderful day, a gift.
And I realized that Yahweh had fulfilled the Promise He made to me three years ago when He told me that, "Life is a gift, and this world is a beautiful place." But oh, how I did not know it then. I held on to that Promise in faith because all I'd ever seen of the world was hatred and all I'd ever felt of life was pain.
Yet now, even when confronted with the things of the enemy in the world, I can still walk in the Spirit and Power of Yahweh. I can still walk in my Promise. I can receive His gifts, like today, and every day that He gives me to express and glorify Him here on the Earth.
I woke up and turned on the TV because there was the possibility of a light snow dusting and I wanted to be sure that it hadn't snowed in the city I work in because I live about 45 minutes away. I looked out the window and there was no snow on the ground. The news said there was a little snow to the side of the roads on the main highway I'd have to take to get in to school, and so I quickly turned it off and jumped in the shower because I sleep as much as possible in the mornings and didn't have a lot of time to get ready.
The whole way to school, the roads are clear and dry. As I got closer, I noticed snow on the grass and on the side roads. Then, as I pulled into the school parking lot I was shocked to see one or two cars in the administration parking lot and no kids outside or buses.
"No," I whispered to myself as I drove to the back parking lot. "The kids are huddled inside waiting." I reasoned, "I came in the gap between bus drop offs."
I refused to believe it until I saw that the staff parking lot was entirely empty. I pulled in and whipped out my phone, googling my school district's name to find it CLOSED.
I had to decide what to feel in that moment. Part of me was upset--I could've slept to my normal circadian rhythmic hours! Mostly, though, I was ecstatic.
I love snow days! It's not because I want to be lazy and miss work or because I don't like my job. I love my job and I love being able to express Yahweh there. It's not even because I love the biting air and the beautiful blanket of white, though I do. I love snow days because they are a special gift from Yahweh.
You see, He uses snow days to give me time. This time is completely free of all obligations or requirements, as the obligations and requirements that were there have been cancelled. I can fill it with whatever I want, and because my heart is one with Yahweh, anything I fill it with is good.
So today I went to the gym (after buying some showering supplies in Walmart) and then headed to my parents' house for a while because I asked my mom if she wanted to see a movie. After a lunch date that she'd had with her friend, we saw "Collateral Beauty."
Then I came home, and the whole thing was entirely beautiful. It was a wonderful day, a gift.
And I realized that Yahweh had fulfilled the Promise He made to me three years ago when He told me that, "Life is a gift, and this world is a beautiful place." But oh, how I did not know it then. I held on to that Promise in faith because all I'd ever seen of the world was hatred and all I'd ever felt of life was pain.
Yet now, even when confronted with the things of the enemy in the world, I can still walk in the Spirit and Power of Yahweh. I can still walk in my Promise. I can receive His gifts, like today, and every day that He gives me to express and glorify Him here on the Earth.
Friday, December 30, 2016
2016: The Year of Fulfilled Promise
I always like to take stock of the year at milestones such as these and look back at all that Yahweh has done.
I know if you look at the media, it would be easy to surmise that 2016 has been a rotten year for the majority of Americans and the world in general. I know better than to listen to the media, and even though some negative things have happened in the world, Yahweh is sovereign and any change such as we've seen can be used by Him to bring Heaven more fully in unity with Earth. Indeed, for some the removal of one layer of illusion in society will allow them to step more fully into the Truth of Yahweh as they begin to look deeper past the layer they are currently seeing. That is hopeful.
In my personal life, 2016 has been the best of my 28 years, and it only gets better from here. Even as I think to describe it, know that I am a Wordsmith, yet even I cannot adequately express what Yahweh has done for me here.
Let me start by saying that 2016 did not start out as the best year of my life. Indeed, for the first four months I wondered if I could make it through 2016 at all. The enemy saw my breakthrough coming, and he tried to stop me before it got here, lest I remember my Promise and my power and utterly defeat him.
Somewhere in the back of my soul for the whole of my life until now, I had a fear that I did not deserve to be alive. A generational curse told me that I needed to earn my space in this world, and that if I were not good enough everyone--Yahweh included--would hate me and wish that I didn't exist.
I started 2016 alone and in fear, thinking that I did not deserve to live and that anything that went wrong in my life was somehow my fault. I spent a few evenings literally lying on the floor crying or in panic attacks because the enemy was sending me false visions involving my blood and knives and other details I will not go into. Fortunately, Yahweh has always been sovereign and I knew that the visions weren't true, though even seeing them was scary. Yet, Yahweh had me, and He surrounded me with a people who would stand with me in faith and remind me of truth until I could remember it myself.
This happened in April, around the time of First Fruits, when we celebrate Yahshua--Yahweh's first and best--by coming into agreement with Him as we give our first and best. It was then that Yahweh reminded me of my Promise, the Covenant that we made together before time to create me.
I have never since doubted that I deserve to be alive.
As we moved through the year, I published a book related to the Promise, "Promises: The Poetry of the Zadokim." I also received a deeper revelation of the Zadokim anointing, that we as priests and kings of Yahweh most high could go directly to Him and minister to Him and offer Him the fat and the blood. We do so in worship and we do so by ruling and reigning and taking our place in this Earth for His glory.
I had the last panic attack in June, when Yahweh told me that I have the power to stand up to the enemy... all the power in the universe, in fact. As fear tried to grip me, once more and my breathing became shallow, I stopped and told Satan and fear that they have no power over me because I have all the power in the universe. It was gone in five minutes, and I was praising Yahweh, dancing and weeping in joy. The next night, it happened again, just to cement the reality of Yahweh's Word. Again, I told fear that I have power and it does not and it left me, never to return. Yahweh was proud of me, and I wrote poetry and a letter to Him in praise.
In the natural, I received a job that is much better for me and where I can still make a difference and help kids. I have supportive co-workers and administrators and wonderful students. I am no longer exhausted by the school year.
One of the best things that has happened to me this year is that I found my Promised Land, or the place that Yahweh has given me to operate and reign in. I am a poet and a parablist. I am a writer and I take all that Yahweh shows me and put it in poetry and parables so that He can be seen and glorified in greater measure. I have written 4 books since publishing my first one and cannot wait to see the rest be published. I have started a business to write and sell these books and I have two book signings coming up in January.
Even more wonderful things have happened. I have learned to see beyond the Veil, to see from Yahweh's perspective and He has shared parts of Himself with me that are so glorious and so beautiful that I must weep at the splendor.
I do not dread 2017. I have dreaded every New Year that I can remember. Even as a child, I knew pain and I was smart enough to know that both good and bad would come in the year ahead. I had a wonderful imagination, but as it was not aware of Yahweh as it is now, it would take me down the path of thinking that horrible things could happen in the next year that I could neither predict nor alter.
I never thought about the wonderful things that could happen, and as I grew older and pain was all I knew, I stopped looking forward to anything. Dread started each day with me, and I did not know it could be any different.
Yet now, I know the sovereignty of Yahweh in greater measure, and the relationship I have with Him can only deepen in the coming year. He has Promises for me that are beyond my wildest dreams and I am excited to see them manifest in this world.
I see the world so differently now. I see with more of Yahweh's view. His Reality is sovereign in me and in my perspective. I did not know that life could ever be this good. Yet, now I know that life can be even better. It only ever gets better, for Yahweh can only ever increase.
But none of this would be possible without Yahweh. If I had listened to the visions of the enemy and hurt myself or taken myself out of the Promise as they called me to do, I would never have experienced this joy and this rapture. Life is good and worth it. Yahweh is Life.
If you watched me walk through the things I suffered at the time, you know I would not have then called them "light afflictions," yet compared to the joy that I walk in now, compared to Yahweh, they are just that. He promised: "Wherever you go I will find you/ wherever you are, there I'll be." He has kept His Promise in greater ways than I could have ever imagined, fathomed, or even dreamed.
HalleluYah!
I know if you look at the media, it would be easy to surmise that 2016 has been a rotten year for the majority of Americans and the world in general. I know better than to listen to the media, and even though some negative things have happened in the world, Yahweh is sovereign and any change such as we've seen can be used by Him to bring Heaven more fully in unity with Earth. Indeed, for some the removal of one layer of illusion in society will allow them to step more fully into the Truth of Yahweh as they begin to look deeper past the layer they are currently seeing. That is hopeful.
In my personal life, 2016 has been the best of my 28 years, and it only gets better from here. Even as I think to describe it, know that I am a Wordsmith, yet even I cannot adequately express what Yahweh has done for me here.
Let me start by saying that 2016 did not start out as the best year of my life. Indeed, for the first four months I wondered if I could make it through 2016 at all. The enemy saw my breakthrough coming, and he tried to stop me before it got here, lest I remember my Promise and my power and utterly defeat him.
Somewhere in the back of my soul for the whole of my life until now, I had a fear that I did not deserve to be alive. A generational curse told me that I needed to earn my space in this world, and that if I were not good enough everyone--Yahweh included--would hate me and wish that I didn't exist.
I started 2016 alone and in fear, thinking that I did not deserve to live and that anything that went wrong in my life was somehow my fault. I spent a few evenings literally lying on the floor crying or in panic attacks because the enemy was sending me false visions involving my blood and knives and other details I will not go into. Fortunately, Yahweh has always been sovereign and I knew that the visions weren't true, though even seeing them was scary. Yet, Yahweh had me, and He surrounded me with a people who would stand with me in faith and remind me of truth until I could remember it myself.
This happened in April, around the time of First Fruits, when we celebrate Yahshua--Yahweh's first and best--by coming into agreement with Him as we give our first and best. It was then that Yahweh reminded me of my Promise, the Covenant that we made together before time to create me.
I have never since doubted that I deserve to be alive.
As we moved through the year, I published a book related to the Promise, "Promises: The Poetry of the Zadokim." I also received a deeper revelation of the Zadokim anointing, that we as priests and kings of Yahweh most high could go directly to Him and minister to Him and offer Him the fat and the blood. We do so in worship and we do so by ruling and reigning and taking our place in this Earth for His glory.
I had the last panic attack in June, when Yahweh told me that I have the power to stand up to the enemy... all the power in the universe, in fact. As fear tried to grip me, once more and my breathing became shallow, I stopped and told Satan and fear that they have no power over me because I have all the power in the universe. It was gone in five minutes, and I was praising Yahweh, dancing and weeping in joy. The next night, it happened again, just to cement the reality of Yahweh's Word. Again, I told fear that I have power and it does not and it left me, never to return. Yahweh was proud of me, and I wrote poetry and a letter to Him in praise.
In the natural, I received a job that is much better for me and where I can still make a difference and help kids. I have supportive co-workers and administrators and wonderful students. I am no longer exhausted by the school year.
One of the best things that has happened to me this year is that I found my Promised Land, or the place that Yahweh has given me to operate and reign in. I am a poet and a parablist. I am a writer and I take all that Yahweh shows me and put it in poetry and parables so that He can be seen and glorified in greater measure. I have written 4 books since publishing my first one and cannot wait to see the rest be published. I have started a business to write and sell these books and I have two book signings coming up in January.
Even more wonderful things have happened. I have learned to see beyond the Veil, to see from Yahweh's perspective and He has shared parts of Himself with me that are so glorious and so beautiful that I must weep at the splendor.
I do not dread 2017. I have dreaded every New Year that I can remember. Even as a child, I knew pain and I was smart enough to know that both good and bad would come in the year ahead. I had a wonderful imagination, but as it was not aware of Yahweh as it is now, it would take me down the path of thinking that horrible things could happen in the next year that I could neither predict nor alter.
I never thought about the wonderful things that could happen, and as I grew older and pain was all I knew, I stopped looking forward to anything. Dread started each day with me, and I did not know it could be any different.
Yet now, I know the sovereignty of Yahweh in greater measure, and the relationship I have with Him can only deepen in the coming year. He has Promises for me that are beyond my wildest dreams and I am excited to see them manifest in this world.
I see the world so differently now. I see with more of Yahweh's view. His Reality is sovereign in me and in my perspective. I did not know that life could ever be this good. Yet, now I know that life can be even better. It only ever gets better, for Yahweh can only ever increase.
But none of this would be possible without Yahweh. If I had listened to the visions of the enemy and hurt myself or taken myself out of the Promise as they called me to do, I would never have experienced this joy and this rapture. Life is good and worth it. Yahweh is Life.
If you watched me walk through the things I suffered at the time, you know I would not have then called them "light afflictions," yet compared to the joy that I walk in now, compared to Yahweh, they are just that. He promised: "Wherever you go I will find you/ wherever you are, there I'll be." He has kept His Promise in greater ways than I could have ever imagined, fathomed, or even dreamed.
HalleluYah!
Saturday, December 24, 2016
The Promise of Christmas
I am continually amazed at the way in which Yahweh has hidden Himself throughout His creation for all of us to find. Some see Him in nature, some in other people's gifts of kindness or acts of love. I find Him in Words.
Christ-anointed one/anointing. He is the Spirit of Yahweh who operated through Yahshua when He was on the Earth and who currently operates through us if we give Him access to our hearts.
Mass-from the Latin mittere, meaning "to send."
Christmas- The sending of Christ! The coming to this realm, the Earth, of the Spirit of the Creator.
But oh, it's so much more than that, for this mittere is also the root word of Promise.
Why did Yahweh send His Son to the Earth? I'll be controversial and say that it was not simply so that He could die and save mankind from their sins. It is so much bigger than that! He sent Yahshua to Earth to unlock our Promised Land once again. That mankind could again be redeemed to the Garden of Eden--our own unique and special wheelhouses where we can express and create with Yahweh as we originally promised to do when we Covenanted with Him in the Beginning.
Yahshua came to Earth to redeem our Promise.
That is what we celebrate today on Christmas Eve and tomorrow on Christmas Day. It is more than a baby born in a manger, more than salvation from the sins that would ensnare us, it is the total redemption of the Promise that is our very existence and all that we do to express it.
This Promise, made before time in the Heavens, had to be affirmed on the Earth once the two were separated by the Fall. Thus that the Promise could be fulfilled in its entirety in all realms. Christmas is that affirmation, when Yahshua came to the Earth as the Word made Flesh, the Promise made Man.
Christmas is a Promise, and for those who will affirm the Promise in their own hearts and in their own lives, it is something that we can live in always, not just on December 25.
Glory to God in the Highest!
Christ-anointed one/anointing. He is the Spirit of Yahweh who operated through Yahshua when He was on the Earth and who currently operates through us if we give Him access to our hearts.
Mass-from the Latin mittere, meaning "to send."
Christmas- The sending of Christ! The coming to this realm, the Earth, of the Spirit of the Creator.
But oh, it's so much more than that, for this mittere is also the root word of Promise.
Why did Yahweh send His Son to the Earth? I'll be controversial and say that it was not simply so that He could die and save mankind from their sins. It is so much bigger than that! He sent Yahshua to Earth to unlock our Promised Land once again. That mankind could again be redeemed to the Garden of Eden--our own unique and special wheelhouses where we can express and create with Yahweh as we originally promised to do when we Covenanted with Him in the Beginning.
Yahshua came to Earth to redeem our Promise.
That is what we celebrate today on Christmas Eve and tomorrow on Christmas Day. It is more than a baby born in a manger, more than salvation from the sins that would ensnare us, it is the total redemption of the Promise that is our very existence and all that we do to express it.
This Promise, made before time in the Heavens, had to be affirmed on the Earth once the two were separated by the Fall. Thus that the Promise could be fulfilled in its entirety in all realms. Christmas is that affirmation, when Yahshua came to the Earth as the Word made Flesh, the Promise made Man.
Christmas is a Promise, and for those who will affirm the Promise in their own hearts and in their own lives, it is something that we can live in always, not just on December 25.
Glory to God in the Highest!
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