98 Pounds

Through Yahweh, I have lost 98 pounds since July.

98 pounds in 8 months.

I'm smaller than I've been in years.

But I'm also bigger than I've ever been.

I'm big enough for the Creator of the Universe, Yahweh,

To live in me.

I'm small.

Yet I'm huge!

And because I'm so huge,

I can be so small.

All glory to Yahweh!

I could never have done it without Him.

And I'm not stopping now!

Amen.

Concrete, Physical Gifts from Yahweh

The other night I took the dog to my room and let her sleep with me in my bed. This was a treat for me, as the dog usually sleeps in Mom's room with her, and after Mom goes to bed, we don't usually get to see the dogs until she wakes the next morning. So it is a very real treat for me to have this particular well-behaved warm, fuzzy critter in bed with me for the whole night.

Mom likes sleeping with Ellie (our dog), and she's used to it, having done it for as long as we've had Ellie. Mom usually doesn't want Ellie away from her at night, but she let me keep Ellie. She said Yahweh told her to do it.

Yahweh gave me a gift! The gift of a night with Ellie. And He used Mom to give me it.

About a year ago, Yahweh gave me roses through another person whom He told to do so.

I used to think Yahweh gave gifts that were Spiritual or maybe gifts of time or more abstract things. I did not realize He could also give physical gifts until I received the roses. Yahweh has given me real, concrete things. (Not that I'm discounting the Spiritual gifts. These beautiful things could never be discounted, and are beyond words but not beyond the Word.) But the point is that Yahweh also gives physical gifts! His gift-giving is unlimited! It's awesome!

While I'm sure Yahweh could give you a physical gift by dropping something into your lap out of thin air if He wanted to, I have yet to see this happen. Yahweh created an order in this universe, and this order means that Yahweh operates in the physical realm mostly through mankind. Both of the times Yahweh has given me a physical gift, it was when He told someone else to do it. Yahweh gives gifts to men! Yahweh gives gifts THROUGH men! It is awesome!

When Yahweh gives gifts through men, two people receive the gift: the end recipient of the gift, and the person through whom the gift was given.

But if the people who hear Yahweh telling them to give a gift do not obey, then no one receives the gift. :(

I am blessed that so many people around me choose to obey Yahweh's prompting to give gifts. Some people call it sowing. As in, one sows a seed and is thereby blessed. I am completely blessed to be a member of an ecclesia full of sowers. I am blessed to have my mom, a sower. I am blessed by all the people who obey Yahweh that surround me. And I am blessed by Yahweh.

I, too, have given gifts, though people may not realize it, and they are not monetary. I don't make money yet, but soon I will, and then I will be able to sow even this. I am blessed to be a blessing!

HalleluYah!

Facebook Deletion

While it has been hard for me, I am about to make the final Facebook decision and hit that delete button. I have posted a status telling my friends where to contact me if they so choose, and perhaps some of you are them, reading this blog now, given that I listed it as a place to contact me.

So why am I about to hit that "delete" button, instead of simply taking a break from Facebook or letting my account go inactive? Well, for one thing, I do not want to do things halfway. The Bible calls this "double-mindedness" and it is a bad thing. Secondly, once I take a step FORWARD in the Kingdom, I will NOT go back. Thirdly, I do not want the temptation.

So, why delete Facebook, though? Simple. A Word of Yahweh. Not a real specific word, like "Delete Facebook," but a more subtle Word. A forceful, powerful Word, but subtle nonetheless. For Yahweh speaks in thunder and lightning, but He also speaks in whispers.

And over the past few weeks, He has been whispering to me and I have begun to hate the things of babylon. The things that are not of Him. The impure things. And while my Facebook friends list is basically my biological family, friends of the family who have become family, or my Kingdom family, and thus not in itself impure, Facebook seems impure to me. It is obsession (which is not of Yahweh) and while a medium (like Facebook or the Internet or a book) is not impure in itself (it's what you do with it, usually), I feel, for me, that having Facebook is a little too much like the babylon world from which I desperately wish to distance myself.

But that is not the only point. The other point is this: I am joined to an ecclesia, and the head of that ecclesia is an Apostle. The Apostle who leads my ecclesia abhors Facebook. And as I submit to his authority given by Yahweh, I also submit to his abhorrence of Facebook. Now, he also likes golf, but I'm not sure I ever will. The point is, though, this is a Word, and so different. And while I've been told the Kingdom must come like a seed (be planted, tended, grow) and the Word must manifest after time, my seed has grown.

So, I have deleted Facebook and Twitter accounts I had. And it was HARD! And both of them made it even harder, making me type in password, explain leaving, and security codes. And OUCH! It hurt! But so did exercising and dieting, at first, and now I've lost 84 pounds and counting. So, once that "sorrowful soul" time ends, (and look! the feeling in the pit of my stomach of making some terrible mistake is already gone!), I know I will be blessed for this. For really, I need to disconnect in this way from the world. I cannot be IN but not OF the world if I am too much like the world. And now I have more time to spend with Yahweh!

Boy, I'm glad I deleted that tonight before I chickened out again!

And now, to spend some time with Yahweh, He who is much more than more!

<3
Cassie

Integrity

I grew up thinking integrity was the same thing as honesty, which is not entirely wrong. However, they are not exactly the same thing, as the meaning of one does not fully encompass the meaning of the other. I think of it kind of like a Venn Diagram, which has two overlapping circles that do not completely overlap.

Honesty and truthfulness and honor are all part of integrity, at least when it comes to a persons' characteristics, but integrity has another meaning.

Integrity is when there is nothing but that thing in it. In other words, a garment unmarred by stains, tears, or such has integrity. Gold, unmarred by dross or other impurities has integrity. It is 100% gold, and nothing else.

So a man, a person, when unmarred by the impurities of this world, by vain imaginations, has integrity. When a man is 100% Kingdom, 100% Yahweh, almost, he has integrity. (I say almost because I do not wish to give the false impression that a man is god, which is more like humanism than what I am talking about. I mean, rather, to convey that which is almost unable to be conveyed in mere words but which, in the end, must rather be KNOWN by the Spirit). For a man is not separate from Yahweh if he has integrity. A man is the full pure expression of Yahweh that he is called to be, for each of us is the only unique us-expression of Yahweh there will ever be. I am the only Cassie-expression of Yahweh, as you are the only YOU expression of Yahweh. No one else can or will ever express Yahweh like you will. This makes you special. This makes you important. And it is a heavy responsibility, but it is not one you have to bear alone, since Yahweh bears the yoke.

But back to integrity, a person with integrity is unmarred. I was talking to a friend at ecclesia a few days or a week ago, and she was talking about a prophetic word (a Word of Yahweh revealed to us) and how the Word always will come to pass, but if we try to understand it or picture how it will work...if we let a little thought get in there, problems arise. I began to think about a fly getting into the ointment. The ointment is pure, 100% ointment, and then a little fly enters the ointment. It is a black spot, struggling in the ointment, and ultimately marring the ointment until it is removed. In other words, the ointment no longer has integrity. In the same way, the thought mars the integrity of the Word. The Word is not deficient, for nothing of Yahweh is ever deficient, but if what you have received is not 100% Word, this received hybrid could be deficient.

So, I want integrity. I want to receive 100% Yahweh and only 100% Him. I want to BE 100% Yahweh, and nothing else. And so, I will not allow that which is not of Him to mar my integrity. And I will not input such things as TV shows or books that would mar the integrity of Yahweh in me. For I will not be a hybrid. I am a remnant.

HalleluYah!

How beautiful it is to be integrity. To be Yahweh's. To be Cassie-expression of Yahweh. And how beautiful YOU are when you express Him!

Cassie

Skate Party!

The 2011 ecclesia skate party is now ended. It was, of course, AWESOME! So beautiful!

And what made it awesome, you ask? Was it the skating? The cupcake made by one of my Spiritual brothers (with Oreos!)? The strange little dog that did amazing tricks outside the Braum's afterward?

Yes, but mostly it was the people.

These people...this group of people...is one group I am proud to be a member of. A group of Kingdomheirs and mighty sons of Yahweh manifesting in the Earth. Each of us is a different manifestation of Yahweh. He SHINES through us! And to love each person (and myself, even) is to love Him...and love Him more.

You see, I am not separate from Yahweh. I can be and do all things Yahshua the Christ is and does (and was and did when He was on the Earth) because I am not separate from Yahweh even as He was not separate from Yahweh. I mean, yes, it is different in some ways, for we are not Yahweh, but we are also not-not Yahweh. We are, each of us, a Word spoken by Yahweh. And because He spoke us, we are Real. And because we are Real, we are some measure Yahweh. For all Real things are of Him. And perhaps you misunderstand because it is somewhat inexplicable in words. But perhaps you are filled with Holy Spirit and receive this as it is meant.

And if I am not separate from Yahweh and my Spiritual family, individually, is not separate from Yahweh, we are, then, not separate from each other. And this, readers, is joining. We are joined and jointed by the Spirit of Yahweh, operating on Kingdom principles and glorifying Yahweh. Through us He shines, and we are honored to be a part of such brightness, such light.

HalleluYah!

So I am grateful beyond words for Yahweh. And I am grateful beyond words for the ecclesia He has joined me to. And I am grateful beyond words for the manifestation of Yahweh through each one of the people in my ecclesia. Through my family. Through my Spiritual family. HalleluYah!

I love Yahweh. And I love Yahweh in each person in my ecclesia. And I love Yahweh in my ecclesia as a whole. And I love Yahweh in myself. And I love Yahweh in the skating, the cupcake with Oreos, the strange little dog who did amazing tricks outside the Braum's. I love Yahweh! HalleluYah!

The Morning Commute

As a student-teacher/intern in the local Masters of Arts in Teaching Program, I am required to student teach four days a week and attend classes at the university one day a week. I have three rotations in three different public secondary school Spanish classrooms. I am going to be the best Spanish teacher in order to do so with excellence and glorify Yahweh! Praise Him!

Well, anyway, my first two rotations were in the town in which I live, which was awesome because I had to be there at 8:00 a.m. My third rotation is in a town 30-40 minutes away (depending on traffic), however, and I have a very long drive every morning and evening.

I LOVE the morning commute! Yahweh is SO awesome to give it to me. I know, I know, how many people say that? But I really, REALLY do! It helps that I don't have to be at the school in the town far away until 8:30 a. m. given that school doesn't start for the students until 8:55. Really, I actually don't have to leave as early as I did going to school in my own town! But that's not the best part (though those extra 15 minutes of sleep ARE wonderful things for which to be grateful...and I AM grateful!). The best part is that I have 30-40 WHOLE MINUTES just alone with Yahweh! It is the perfect time to pray in tongues, listen to the local Christian radio station (when the songs are uplifting ones...not the "I'm a sinful, sinful worm and thus should be sad ones), and just be with Him! Even the times when the radio station plays the sad songs, I can turn it off and pray in tongues! And there is NO chance to be distracted (ie, "let me just check my email" or "let me watch this ONE TV show" or, "let me call my friend"). I know I should not ever be distracted when I should be spending time with Yahweh, and I'm not saying I never spend time with Him outside the commute time, but I really love this added time. PLUS, I show up to school happy, joyful, and full of Yahweh! It's hard to stop singing when I get there!

So, praise Yahweh for the morning commute! Amen! Glory! HalleluYah!

A bunch of awesome things

So, today's post has an actual topic-type topic. Ok, well, it did, but I now see why it can be hard to label a Kingdom speaking with a topic-type topic. So, I'll just go and flow and not try to confine.

Today's post is about joining. About ecclesia-joining. About Kingdom joining. And about a bunch of other things. But in the end, it is ALL about Yahweh!!!!!!!

The Kingdom of Yahweh is a wonderful place! It is the place where Yahweh reigns, rules, and makes the rules. It is the place governed by the laws of the Kingdom. It is a place of fruit, joy, and all things good. It is a place populated by mighty, powerful, awesome sons of Yahweh who are joined together to glorify Yahweh, agree with His word, and be a part of His Word's coming to manifestation in the natural realm.

These fellow Kingdomheir sons of Yahweh edify you and you edify them. This is how it works, for we are all really about Yahweh and edifying/glorifying Him anyway. So, in the Kingdom you get a word and your fellow Kingdomheir confirms the word from Yahweh.

And this is the word right here: confirm. In Spanish "con" means "with." It is the same root as the word concur (a synonym of "to agree"). Firm means strong. Solid. Unmoved.

Therefore, together as Kingdomheirs, we strengthen, solidify, and hold steadfast in the mighty, powerful, unchanging yet dynamic and ever-increasing Word of Yahweh!

YAY for joining, confirmation, and ecclesia! :D

What's more, "concur" might be from the word currere (Latin... something about course or run or something). But whether or not I remember my vocabulary terms correctly, the point is that fellow Kingdomheirs run and firm WITH you! Yay! Increase!

One revelation to you sparks one to a fellow Kingdomheir which just kindles your flame anew which emboldens the flame of fellow Kingdomheirs in a perpetual increase. In flow. In Yahweh! HalleluYah! Now I can see why the INCREASE of His government and peace shall have no end (Isaiah 9:7). Perpetual increase.

Which brings me to another topic-type topic (which is really the same topic anyway, for it is ALL Yahweh!)... flow. The Apostle of the ecclesia I am joined to said something today about how the Kingdom naturally just flows or something. Which totally brought into my mind a Truth/Word of Yahweh, which is: it takes more strife, striving, and effort to stop the flow of Yahweh's Kingdom, to impede the principles of Yahweh, than it does to just flow in it. How can we be in the Rest at all times? Just by being Yahweh's. Just GO with Him and His ways. He is moving, and so to move in tandem with Him is very flow-ing and trying to impede the flow is striving. After all, which is more difficult, building a dam or flowing in the current?

Which brings me to another topic-type topic, freedom. Walking on the water? DANCING on the water. We can do anything with Yahweh and freely in Him. His Word and will and ways prevail. They always have and always will, for in the end, they are all that will remain. Yay!

I LOVE Yahweh! I love Him forever and ever and ever and ever and He is so beyond awesome and He has given me so much. From the small, simple beauties of every day life (see yesterday's blog post) to the great joys of healing, ecclesia, and the Blessing.

The Blessing. He IS the Blessing. The greatest blessing of all. I often hear religion say that we should do things for others regardless of the blessing, and I kind of always felt bad about that for many reasons. One of those reasons is that I DO always want blessing. Because Yahweh IS the Blessing. The greatest Blessing. And truthfully, it is not nor will it EVER be wrong to want Him. !

And if we want Him, as He has said, "...He will give you the desires of your heart." (Psalm 37:4).

HalleluYah! :D Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes,

And now I see why babies burble and gurgle and coo. I see why cats purr and dogs sigh tenderly. I see why birds chirp and the wind blows. Sounds to glorify Yahweh. To praise Him and thank Him. For I often, in my head, make chirping noises (or, for those who remember the Nintendo video game "Yoshi's Story," that noise Yoshi makes when he wins a level...something like gully-gully-gu-hoo!) or burble like a baby. I giggle and caress my own face. I laugh. I love. For Yahweh is awesome and great and He loves me and when He touches me, I must do these things, though I may not physically be capable of sounding like a bird or an infant. I love Yahweh and I bless Him. He has been so good, so beyond awesome, to me, and I will always love Him, always be grateful for Him and His workings. Yahweh IS.

HALLELUYAH!!!!!!!!